to be passionately in love.

"love is not proud, love does not boast, love after all matters most. love does not run, love does not hide, love does not keep locked inside. love is the river that flows through. love never fails you. love will sustain, love will provide, love will not cease at the the end of time. love will protect, love always hopes, love still believes when you don't. love is the arms that are holding you. love never fails you. when my heart won't make a sound. when i can't turn back around. when the sky is falling down. nothing is greater than this. greater than this. love is right here, love is alive, love is the way, the truth, the life. love is the river that flows through. love is the arms that are holding you. and love is the place you will fly to. love never fails you." -brandon heath.

"oh how He loves us" "how deep the Father's love for us" "I am eternally Yours" "You held on like a lover who couldn't let go of his bride" "I'm falling for You now" "my beautiful love" "don't you know that you are dearly loved" "i was made to love you" "That's what it takes to show you how much i love you" "Great is Your love and Your faithfulness" "A childlike love i had when we first began" "all i need is Your love" "I still love you beyond what words can say..."

for a while now, it seems like everywhere i go, everything i do, and in everything i hear the word LOVE is everywhere. especially referring to God's never ending love for us. i have also felt God's yearning for us to be madly and passionately in love with Him. it still seems as if something is quite fully there, though. and i can't quite figure it out... i am in the perfect position to be fully in love with God, and i am don't get me wrong, but i feel as if i'm not enough in love. as if i'm falling down on the job. i have a burning passion to be bale to feel this great love... and in ways, i do... but i also feel like there is so much more i could be doing. these past two days, the gears in my mind have just been turning non-stop. i've just been lost in my thoughts. and this actually has turned out to be the best thing for me. when i first realized that this theme of love was one that God was trying to get my attention with, i thought He was talking about loving others, but it turns out what He was trying to tell me is that my main priority right now should be to fall deeply in love with Him. My main love and passion should be for my creator: who loves me more than i could ever imagine.

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i call your name, where are you?
the words you say, they aren't so true.
i heard your voice in the midst of the heartache.
up on this mountain, you seem so far away.

i love you so. child you are mine.
i hope you know, i gave up my life.
i want you to remember me
my precious love, eternity

[chorus]
you won't walk with faith so small
but when you stand, i will hold your hand
love of my life, lay down your pride
when you can't get through, i will carry you

look in the mirror what do you see?
do you even remember what you're like with me?
love of my life, don't forget this time
who you were when you were mine

[chorus]

i see you fall, i'll pick you up this time
it'll happen again, child please don't cry
when you're on your knees, remember this
i'll be here waiting with endless bliss

[chorus]





ahava.

simplicity

so this is my second post in 24. very very uncharacteristic of me. but this is necessary. i just finished a conversation with a friend of mine. -- i wish there were a better word than friend or even "best friend." i mean i guess this person could be considered a mentor or accountability partner... but i feel like she's more like my sister -- anywho... she asked me to pray for her, she was stressed.

"I am having a really hard day -- I am hating everything in the world -plastic, concrete, col- eveything-- I hate that humans are so dumb and we make things important that have no eternal value at all - like mla, plaigerism, and college - I think it's partially because I am stressed but I do not see the point in all this stupidity."

she, a lot like me, would much rather be able to appreciate the simple things in life than have to deal with extras. she said she was so stressed and asked if that was normal... she felt like she was crazy. right when she said that, i realized that i do the exact same thing! i get too stressed because people make such a big deal out of small details that will never matter. EVER. sure, they will help me write papers in college, but past that, it doesn't matter how i express my point, as long as i get it across. we get so caught up in the stupid extras... and that makes me so frustrated sometimes! I know it's probably a little bit irrational but I really don't care right now. I just want to be able to enjoy what's going on without being so caught up in what people expect of me (especially when these things are really stupid). but aghhhhh. okay I think I should stop now before I get too carried away...

"I just want simple-simple plans, simple hopes, simple home, simple faith (because it is-not stupid add ins you know) simple peace, simple beauty in weather...simple."

broken from the start

life is a gift like fresh cut roses. cut from the branch and brought inside. it's a slow contradiction. it's beauty in a vase. when the cords are cut that's when we start to die. lately death and life get so confusing. I can't tell the difference here tonight. lately every breath feels like I'm kissing death. and when time is dead we cease to be alive. if you hide yourself deep inside. deep inside. in time you've got nothing left to hide. there's nothing left inside. tonight honey, I'm gonna break your heart. mine was broken from the start. broken from the start. choice is the only thing we're given. for one to live another dies. one road says hello, the other says goodbye. and the road that you don't choose begins to die. they won't pay a cent to hear you laughing. they might pay a little to hear you cry. if you do it long enough, they might even pay attention. but they still won't pay respect until you die. if you hide yourself deep inside deep inside. in time you've got nothing left to hide. it's all dead inside. tonight honey I'm gonna break your heart. mine was broken from the start. broken from the start.

-jon foreman

basically I love this and wanted to share it. the bolder part is my absolute favorite. I love it a lot. the end.